For the past couple of days, I have been walking around the house, to and from campus, and around campus with one and a half legs (I know it doesn’t make any sense 😅). A few days ago, after attending a lot of makan-makan raya at aunties and sis su’s place, bless them, I feel insecure about myself and decided to start exercising 💪 (you should have figured out where this is going). I was only going to exercise just that one time as there’s no need to put big goals because honestly, the longest streak is four days of exercising, followed by two months of minimum physical activities.
As always, my go to place is blogilates. But since I’m so lazy liddat, I only targeted my legs, and the first video that showed up was ‘Killer Calves Workout’ with length of 5 minutes, sweeeeeet! 😍 So I did the workout excitedly, even repeat it twice! 10 minutes max, and then went around kemas rumah, did my homework, and ate waffles, feeling toned and slim already 😂. Little did I know, my lack of wisdom for not cooling down resulted in days of torture 😭. My calves hurt so bad the next day, and hurt a lot more the day after (which is today). I can’t straighten my left leg, and can barely walk! Have to henjut-henjut everywhere I go. A 10-minute trip to trax station now costs me 20 minutes 😔.
This morning, the extra time from walking so slowly towards the Geology building left me some space to think and muhasabah. I may have mentioned to Ety and Alia and people around me that my legs hurt so bad, but deep down I know this is the least of ujian that Allah had given me, compared to all the blessings that I have been rained upon (read: dihujani).
2017 has been a great year for me so far, Alhamdulillah. So many amazing things had happened in my life and I am still blessed with so many more. Sometimes I think all these rezeki and doors of opportunity come rolling to my feet without me doing anything. I’m not being ungrateful, but with the sins that I kept doing (I’m nowhere near a pious Muslim, and Allah knows that), I feel like I don’t deserve any of these. And I feel like it’s wrong to complain on an almost-broken leg. Plus, they only started to hurt the day AFTER I walked a thousand steps at Costco, shopping my heart out. See what He did there? He let me go buy things that I love to make my heart happy, before taking my nikmat berjalan temporarily. Imagine going shopping with these legs 😖.
Times like this are a good reminder for us to be grateful and I hope we are among the small group who always bersyukur for whatever He gave upon us, in shaa Allah, because …